Lately, I’ve been comparing my Instagram feed to popular influencers’ accounts. These people all have the perfect pictures and thousands, even millions, of followers and likes. I wondered why, or how come? I therefore started analyzing these feeds and noticed that the majority had one thing in common: in every picture, you see a sexy person, showing a bit/too much skin. You always see a body and a pretty face. They might want to show the Eiffel tower, a nice beach, or a nice city view, but in the end, you only see them in the foreground. Don’t get me wrong: I love their pictures so much, but it’s come to the point where I hate my art, and try to change myself, just so I can attract people to my writing. In consequence, it makes me a depressive and irritating person. Even my mom’s fed up of hearing me talk about this ridiculous “issue” of mine. (more…)
Tag: religion
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How to accept having a broken hip, just like Jacob?
Honestly, I don’t know. I tried to make myself feel better by comparing myself to other people, but it made me feel so much worse. I was either envying people with perfectly amazing lives, or judging them without wanting to judge them, just to make sure I didn’t mess up too bad, or crossed the line. But the problem is that I mess up badly everyday. Otherwise, I wouldn’t feel like disappearing.
After comparing myself to others, I looked up stories of saints and prophets from the Bible. I did feel less alone, but that didn’t change anything. I still felt horrible because I didn’t and still don’t have their faith. Because I couldn’t accept my mistakes, I felt doomed, almost destined to be broken. (more…)
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Last week, after I was done work, I tried calling my parents, but none of them picked up the phone.
Then I thought of calling any of my friends, but I knew they wouldn’t pick up as well: blame it on the busy life.
But then again, they might not necessarily be busy. They might not be my friends after all.
And when those people don’t pick up, I usually call you because I know you will. You always have time for any of your loved ones.
But as I was starting to dial your number, I realized you won’t pick up the phone.
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Today in India is Holi, which is also called the “festival of colours.” It marks the end of winter, the beginning of spring, as well as overcoming evil, and celebrating what’s good. It’s like a “forgive and forget” and “move on and live, laugh, love” kind of day. As someone who wants to write a blog post every day of the month of March, I can’t help but think this topic is the best way to start this month.
I have lately felt the urge to wear, add, and eat more colours in my life. This year, I’m being much more healthier than I was last year, and my meals now consist of colourful vegetables that are a contrast to the meatless burger I cook, and that is such a refreshing things for not only my body, but also for me. Moreover, my room has always been “neutral.” In other words, it’s not colourful, but the nude-coloured walls and furniture are covered with Polaroids, postcards, papers, books, notebooks, etc. I therefore eat and have added more colours in my life. (more…)
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thinking of the #futureand #overthinking and responding to hypothetical #questions got me like… 😬but two days ago, a very good #friend of mine told me to just let it go and let God take control. there’s so much #power and #freedom in just trusting God. you’ll be #free of bad #thoughts and negative #stress and you’ll be soooo #happy, you have no idea. always remind yourself that if God doesn’t want it, then you shouldn’t want it either. it’s not easy, but practice your mind and soul to be aware of it. it’s worth your #health, your journey on earth… just completely worth it.
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maybe you thought talking to a #friend you haven’t spoken to in so long was a good #idea, but you got slapped in the #face when they didn’t respond back. when they didn’t answer your simple #question. your simple #howareyouor #doyouremember. maybe they thought you were being opportunistic. maybe it’s the #jetlag 🕞. maybe they’re doing exactly what you did to them long ago. maybe it’s too #painful for them to go back to the #memories and #poems you once shared. you could ask your little questions again to make sure they’re just having a #baddayand that they’re not actually #mad at you. or better, you should probably #pray for them, tell them #goodbye in your head, and just #letitgo. oh and why not drink a cup of #coffee to #forget it all.
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one day, something will turn your #world upside down. or maybe it already has. it could be a text, a #phonecall, a letter, a #facebook post, a #party, a bad or good grade, a loss, a rejection, a first job, a camping trip, a #car accident, a simple encounter with a #stranger, a trip to #Paris, a shooting, a #disease, a natural catastrophe, a #breakup, a new #friend, a #creative project, a #dream come true… anything. you might think you’re experiencing #hell on earth. but sometimes, it’s only when you burn that you get to know #peace. it’s only when your #soul hungers that it seeks His #word to be nourished. yes, you’ll never be the same, and no matter how tragical it seems, it doesn’t mean it’s #bad. trust me. i mean, here i am #writing, after walking through some flames (knowing that i’ll probably walk through some more in the #future) more #alive than ever.
MARIA MAGDELEINA 