Lately, I’ve been comparing my Instagram feed to popular influencers’ accounts. These people all have the perfect pictures and thousands, even millions, of followers and likes. I wondered why, or how come? I therefore started analyzing these feeds and noticed that the majority had one thing in common: in every picture, you see a sexy person, showing a bit/too much skin. You always see a body and a pretty face. They might want to show the Eiffel tower, a nice beach, or a nice city view, but in the end, you only see them in the foreground. Don’t get me wrong: I love their pictures so much, but it’s come to the point where I hate my art, and try to change myself, just so I can attract people to my writing. In consequence, it makes me a depressive and irritating person. Even my mom’s fed up of hearing me talk about this ridiculous “issue” of mine. (more…)
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How to accept having a broken hip, just like Jacob?
Honestly, I don’t know. I tried to make myself feel better by comparing myself to other people, but it made me feel so much worse. I was either envying people with perfectly amazing lives, or judging them without wanting to judge them, just to make sure I didn’t mess up too bad, or crossed the line. But the problem is that I mess up badly everyday. Otherwise, I wouldn’t feel like disappearing.
After comparing myself to others, I looked up stories of saints and prophets from the Bible. I did feel less alone, but that didn’t change anything. I still felt horrible because I didn’t and still don’t have their faith. Because I couldn’t accept my mistakes, I felt doomed, almost destined to be broken. (more…)
MARIA MAGDELEINA 